investing in myself, that was time well spent spent

In eleven days it will be four years since my dad died and can anybody tell me why it is that nobody cares anymore???Why the grace period of “well, she’s grieving” is over and why it’s no longer socially acceptable for the pain to affect my daily life? HE WAS MY BEST FRIEND!!! Why is that people expect me to be “healed” and now every time I mention that I’m struggling with his death I’m told I’m using that as an excuse? AN EXCUSE? I HAVE BEEN A SHELL OF A PERSON SINCE I WATCHED HIM TAKE HIS LAST BREATH AND THERE IS NO COMING BACK. WHY IS NOBODY ELSE ANGRY? UPSET? HEART BROKEN? He was real god damn it, he was real and he deserves to be remembered.

four avoidants looking at the moon

my heart is softening, widening, slowly. i can feel it, overwhelmingly. some people are medicine.