pride can mask itself as false shame

probably the most disappointing graduation you could ask for, and i didn’t ask for it...

disillusionment. Hurts. But. The reality is better. There is hope for life there

I relapsed into talking to your toxic ass today. And I discover that every time I thought you liked me was fabricated, even though everything I said to you was real. Here I was taking my time to craft witty responses to your messages whilst you took your time ignoring me like I was a pest. How shit is this. How stupid have I looked the entire time. To actually put effort into something like this and find out all I did was boost your ego is shit. Bewafa.

Just seeing your name on fb almost brought me to tears. It’s frustrating that you thought I was rejecting you the last time we spoke. I turned down getting back together BECAUSE I love you and I don’t want to put you through something that will just hurt you again. You’ve moved on now... I haven’t