all it takes is one stressful day and suddenly i have regressed into ideation (not that bad just like "hm this would solve everything!" and then thinking about it for .1 seconds longer and going "yes actually that's stupid")

running into new horizons. ain’t the blowback something fierce? that void sure knows how to scream back at you.

people come to my doorstep with big bundles of flowers and it’s not the end of the world yet

can’t tell if i lost my sense of self OR my self importance